Friday, October 3, 2008

The Details in Life

“Life isn’t about the adventure it’s about the details.” This is a quote from a book that I had just read. It caught my eye because it’s so true. The adventure is just an adventure but the little details in between is what it's really all about. The bits and pieces and elements in life is what truly moves us along. It’s the movement, physical and emotional, not the body or the mass. It’s all a ride. But the details during the ride is what it’s all about, even as small and innocuous as it may seem. It’s not the fact that we had to send Meghan to live in a residential school, but it’s the time we spend with her when we’re there. It’s the push on the tire swing and listen for the giggle. It’s the ever so quick smile breaking through just in time for the camera to catch it. It’s learning that your special needs son can actually play a pretty darn good game of scrabble. It’s the people that smile at you when you’re walking through the coffee shop. It’s the good friend that calls when you realize that you’re so lonely. It’s all about the frosting on the cupcake, but not the cupcake.

I find myself at the proverbial crossroads in life. How many times do you find yourself at one of those? I can move any which way I want. Start a new career. Make new friends. Move away. But I find myself standing still or coming back to the same crossroad. Strange. Is it that I’m afraid to make a misstep? Or am I simply lacking a detail that moves me? What will move me along? What will be the detail that makes me say, this is it, this is where I want to be and what I want to do. I don’t know. Since it’s all about the details, I seem to be empty with the details. I’m just on the adventure. Can you say midlife crisis!!!

No, I’m not drunk! I’m just being philosophical. It’s my mood.

1 comment:

Tanya @ TeenAutism said...

Hi Holly,

It's interesting for me to read about your experiences with your brother; I actually went through the same thing with mine. I was often his protector while growing up, so I can definitely relate.

Thanks for the link. I also enjoy your writing very much and have added you to my blogroll.

Best wishes,
Tanya Savko